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there and back again 2009-06-13 5:12 p.m. I don't remember what prompted the process, but a couple of weeks ago I decided there would be "New Cat". Courtesy of Ryan's twitter: "I decided today that I'm going to completely change my personality." 8:32 PM "Me is just not good enough. I have a summer to pin point what I've been doing wrong all my life" 8:33 PM "New Cat" is essentially the opposite of "Old Cat". Easy enough to figure out. She would be affectionate, give hugs, cut the sarcasm, and basically/hopefully likable. A couple of days ago I was on the brink of hey jaunty-ism again and I had to reel myself in, away from the emotional cliff. The only real solution was to revert back to Old Cat: emotionally removed with my heart tucked away in to be determined remote part of my body/mind. I refuse to be hurt. Old Cat is unpleasant, and maybe it doesn't work if I want a boyfriend, but it works if I want to remain intact. I think my lack of blogs is also due to my being averse to "feelings". Half laziness, sure, but I also don't want to face the fact that... Ryan isn't going to be in my life 24/7 anymore and Christina is going to be on the east coast for three months. There, I said it! It's out, I'm not going to get nostalgic. For their graduation presents, I made "yearbooks" of college for them - but really it was kind of focused around me. Hah. It was hard enough going through hundreds of pictures of so many good times. I remember each and every shenanigan really clearly, and I hope there's more to come in the future. Fuck the real life and being yougn professionals. I don't really remember all that's transpired over this drought, so I'll just try to go by the pictures.
Lauren had a "Red Carpet" birthday party at her home in Santa Monica that the core seven were invited to. Everyone was wearing appropriate spring colors. Of course I would wear black and sinister red.
Nima's birthday soon followed. Someone thought Joe Jonas would be a good gift. Not so much.
One random day, Ryan, Amy and I met up with Melissa in Santa Monica to go shopping in Downtown LA. The house from "Almost Famous" was right around the corner from Melissa, and I freaked out. I couldn't stand still for a picture because I was too excited and there were people inside the house looking out at me.
This was taken the morning after I almost fell in love.
We went to Christina's graduation party last night.
The best part of my night: this lion.
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